I dunnoe how to say about the feel....
It make me felt so weigh...
I dunnoe what is those thing inside my head ,
It controlling my mind that I dunnoe...
hw to stop it.
since those things had a fews years ago ,
I realized that I already loss it,
something that cant be replace.
I dunnoe why I always pretend that fear to loss,
that I know that it already lost.
I'm is a stupid guy that do those stupid thing,
thinking those sweet memories
but now nothing left.
why she make me changed like this
and turned me like that.
I scare to face the fact,
so I choosen to evade it.
I cant stare to her eye,
it make me feel guilty to my own failure mind .
I laugh to face the guilt ,
but my heart was cry.
I nw regret it too late,
cuase I know that it just one more step
that I may gain it.
but nw ?!
It's fading far apart from me.
Forgive about
my foolishness and cowardly decision.
good luck
my Fred
