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I dunnoe how to say about the feel....  It make me felt so weigh...  I dunnoe what is those thing inside my head ,  It controlling my mind that I dunnoe... hw to stop it.  since those things had a fews years ago ,  I realized that I already loss it,  something that cant be replace.  I dunnoe why I always pretend that fear to loss,  that I know that it already lost.  I'm is a stupid guy that do those stupid thing,  thinking those sweet memories  but now nothing left. why she make me changed like this  and turned me like that.  I scare to face the fact,  so I choosen to evade it.  I cant stare to her eye,  it make me feel guilty to my own failure mind .  I laugh to face the guilt ,  but my heart was cry.  I nw regret it too late,  cuase I know that it just one more step that I may gain it.  but nw ?!   It's fading far apart from me.  Forgive about my foolishness and cowardly decision.    good luck my Fred